"The man without a purpose is like a ship without a rudder"---Thomas Carlyle.
Usually, we don't scrutinize "why am I alive"? We eat, we sleep, we work and we want to make more money, but we don't muse about" what on earth am I here for"?
When I was working, I had a strong sense of purpose, I was busy improving students' learning skills everyday, I made a lot of decisions and policies to reach that. I didn't have time to think about the meaning of life? But I have nothing to do everyday after retirement, I felt empty and meaningless, I don't know why I am alive?
It's a poor society when I was a child, working to eat is deeply in everyone's mind. I don't know how to live when I don't have to work.
Then, I went traveling around the world and studied in English class, singing class, yoga class,etc. It is almost all of my time everyday. It makes me busy and I forget to get in a bad mood. But occasionally I still wonder what the purpose of my life is?
After retiring for more than ten years, I realized that when I was working, I spent all of my time to other people to make a living. Now I live for myself, I enjoy learning and relaxing, before I try to please others, now I please myself. It is a worthwhile endeavor for Learning how to live for yourself.
What is a fulfilled life? I muse about it again and again, but I am unable to find any answer to this question.
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